I can't assess no solution, foresee nor short, mid or long term ones. I'm lost in my own shadow, unable to cry or express anything from inside. Left myself empty, zombified. Still trying my best. Analyzing keeps me alive, it says a lot. Not so much conserved in my head, my brain is fried, my emotions are mute. My movements are breathless, my body hesitates. Frustration comes along while taking the piss. I'm suffering, and lives in pain, almost constantly and with consistency. Sorrow becomes a loyal friend and it's damaging. I can't form a fucking thought without feeling guilty, I don't trust my own judgements, or the veracity of my feelings. I am hurt inside and it shows outside.

And you know what ? I don't want to feel any longer.